Accepting the things you can not change, is probably one of the most difficult things to do. How have I learned to embrace all kinds of change? Well I chose to take it as it comes. Day by day, step by step, and breathe... make sure to do that, that always helps. Just like all the lights luminating the dark sky in a big city, some turn on and off every night. While some lights turn off and never come back on again. This is how I reflect on my career in the music industry. I think to myself, that my little light will continue to shine and somewhere on this planet, it will brighten someone else's life. That's been my mindset all these years. The little bit of light that I give can make a difference, a positive difference in fact. That's all I want to be is a positive light that makes a difference!
With my time away I had to learn what it was like to just take it easy for a minute (turned my light off / conserve my energy). I had to catch myself, if not stop myself, to find that I was just a human being. I bleed just like you do, cry, laugh and wonder just like you do. I'm not a machine, nor am I invincible. When I fall, I fall like you do, scrap my knees and say ouch and then I'm off! Back to the same cycle of waking up, putting on my pants one leg at a time and then taking time to say a prayer or two and to give God thanks for letting me see another day. Or for that matter, thanking him for letting me flick the switch to let my light shine another day.
This past year, I took the time to grow more in these 10 months. It's been quiet the lesson tho'. Actually, it was more than that. It was many lessons learned about people, my songs, their delivery, the why's and how's, and the why not's. Question after question after silly question. I asked myself; "Sabrina, why are you doing this?" "Why have you chosen to walk this road?" And "Why is my coffee cold?" Just kidding. There was a time in these 10 months that I decided to take a hard look at myself in the mirror, I found that I am much more happier performing, writing, and creating music. In that mirror, I saw my soul and it's passion for the music. I identified the mystery of why I "chase the dream", what others think that I'm doing makes no difference. It's what I wake up for every morning to expierence. My vow to my hearts desire, my vow to my musical marriage, and undying committment to it. That's why I am here. To give back in some special and meaningful way, to cast my light that I flick the switch to and to keep that light ON in everything I do.
After 17 years and some change. Most people ask why I haven't just thrown the towel in on all of this music stuff? My answer to them was and still is; "why should I turn my light off?" This is why I leave my light on, since God has been paying my bill to keep me energized and lit brightly. It would make no sense to flick the switch. It's God that allows me too please the listeners who are out there, who have my songs to turn too and to help them reflect on making a difference in their lives. Whether that means to mend a broken relationship their in, or to simply put a smile on their face for just a day. If they do either one of these things... then my mission is complete.
